Going well : B-

This week has gone fairly well.  I stuck with my diet and hit the gym 3 straight days.  Then, yesterday, I got called into a last minute meeting and did not have enough time to get to the gym before Bunco.  It really pissed me off because I had planned to take Friday off of the gym and go back on Saturday between Ethan's pictures and the parade.  Now, I also have a presentation for a friend at 10:30am.  Then, today, my little brother wanted to go to lunch.  We did and it wasn't terrible.  I'm pretty sure I won't want much of anything tonight.  I never do when I have a big lunch.

Overall, I would give this week a B-.  I take off points for having to miss the gym last night, eating out today, and the possibility of not being able to squeeze in the gym tomorrow.  The good points were that I did make it to the gym three days straight, and this was my first week back in the swing.  I also plan to take Ethan for a run in the jogging stroller as soon as the rain clears up this weekend.

I'm over it.

I'm over it.  I'm done.  DONE.

I'm ready to not be a fat mom anymore.

What is kind of funny about this is that 4 years ago (almost to the day), I made the same decision (minus the mom part).  I had given fitness a halfhearted shot in all of my previous attempts, and the same holds true now.  I've gone a day or two here and there eating well and/or going to the gym.  Then I jump on the scale every other morning or so and expect to see a difference.  Well, this past weekend, I finally had enough.

I want to fit back into ALL of my clothes again.  I don't want to have to buy new, bigger clothes.  Shit, I can't afford to now.

I want my confidence back.  I want to strut around town holding my son.  I want to be active with my son.  I don't want to look back at pictures from my "fitness" days and think that I might not get back to that.

I'm done with the excuses.  My new life as a mother is more reason for me to do this than anything else in this world.

The above photo depresses me..

Because I feel like I will never get back to that point.  But, I know that is not true!  It just seems like that right now.

SO, I'm back!  My sweet little Ethan will turn 4 months tomorrow, and I have started dipping my toes back into the diet/exercise waters.  As much as it sucks, I know that I need to make little changes and build back.  I have to fight the tendency to think that I can just go back full blast.  I know that I cannot.  I have a baby now, and I have to re-learn how to incorporate healthy habits while balancing my job and role as Mommy.

My goals this week:
- Drink more water.  I bought a 64oz refillable jug and aim to drink two full containers by the end of the day.  So far, so good this week!
- Get back in the gym three times.  I made it Monday, took yesterday off (was exhausted from having company over Monday night), and will be back this afternoon.
- Bring my (healthy) lunch and eat it.  Monday went perfectly.  Yesterday, I had a work lunch meeting, and ended up with a (YUMMY) steak.  Part of this goal is to not waste my money, so half of that was met! lol  Today, so far so good.

If I can get through this week and next, then I will add to these goals.  I have to start somewhere, and I sure as hell don't want to start Cross Fit in January without having been doing at least something every week.

Sooo...guess what!

I'm pregnant! :D

In the spirit of this awesome news, I have started a different blog specifically for the baby. I'm kind of retiring this one at least until after the baby.
To see the new blog, go to: sweetpeas-pod.blogspot.com

:)

Curses!

So, looks like no baby this time around - unless I tested too early.. You know what that means? Back to the grind!!

I am joining Melody in a goal to lose 20lbs by February. It starts on November 1st, so I have been trying to start tracking again. I'm very spotty with it right now, but I'm trying to get used to thinking about it so that I can be as close to perfect as possible for the 1st.

The funny thing is, around the same time that this would be ending/accomplished, Michael and I would be trying to get pregnant again! lol!! However, I still want to go full-force with this so that I will be in the best shape of my life for the baby. It will be MUCH easier for my body to bounce back that way.

I've also been experimenting with different fitness regiments. This past week I have started going to Bootcamp Xplosion, which has been awesome! It's definitely throwing a wrench into my normal routine and waking my body up. I can't remember the last time my abs ached so much for so long! Melody, Jessica and I purchased discount vouchers for a month, so I'm trying to take full advantage of it for the next 3 1/2 weeks.

Another exciting tidbit, Michael and I joined Anytime Fitness! He has been wanting to join for a while now, and we had agreed to wait until after Disney. I have only been a couple of times, but he has been pretty regular with going. I'm very proud of him. :) Now, I have until the end of the year to get on with Spectrum as a Spin sub before Michael will be looking for me to cancel my membership. :( I really like the option of classes. One of the instructors at Perkins has offered to help Melody and I through the certification process, which is really cool. I am hoping that all of these events and happenings will keep me motivated through the holidays. :)

Staying calm.

So, the week from Hell has finally hit the end of the road. Things had to get worse before they got better, but I won't go into that.

Wednesday and Thursday found me back at the gym and back in the swing of things. I think I lost about 5 lbs in sweat between the 2 days! I feel lighter in my body and soul.

Disney is exactly a week away!! In one week I will be wrapping up last minute work details and setting my "Out of the Office" auto-replies. I am so excited! This has been such a long time coming, and we've been planning and preparing for over 6 months. Everything (so far!) has fallen into place better than we could have ever thought. It won't be the most *relaxing* vacation we've ever had, but it will definitely be the most fun! We have a day at the beach on our way back and then two days at home before having to get back in the swing of work. I can't wait!

I feel the need to update my 15lbs in 45 days goal. :-P That was a ridiculously high goal, but I have lost about 5 lbs so far. If I can lose another 2 or 3 in the next 7 days, I will be thrilled! lol I am resting today, but plan to be back in the gym in the morning. I've been on a roll, so hopefully I will keep it up! :)

Today...I just want to bitch.

I don't even care if anyone listens!

Today has been shot to shit. SHOT TO SHIT. The only thing that will make it worse is when I pick up my car from the brake shop this afternoon. I'm sure I will want to shoot a kitten.

First, I had nightmares about Disney last night. I guess not true nightmares that most would imagine, but definitely WTF dreams. Then, I have my retainer fix appointment for 12:30p. I go to leave and as I'm pulling out of work, my phone rings. Apparently my appointment was at 12:15p (despite what my card says) and now they can't see me until next week because the doc has a 1p meeting. Oh, but if it's bothering me then I can come in for a quick fix. I am not paying you to cover it with some wax. I hate my orthodontist. He's a pig who only employs cute, young girls and then talks to them like they're worthless. I had forgotten most of it until the first time I had a loose spot on my retainer about 3 months ago. He's still the same asshole. DId I mention that I scheduled this appointment when one spot on my retainer broke A MONTH AGO!

So, now, I'm trying to get a hold of my dear hubby so that he can bring me back to work after I drop my car off at the break shop. I think my break pads are going out. Lovely.

Oh, and one of the small diamonds on my wedding band fell out. I hope it's in the ring holder at home. At least that should be an inexpensive fix - not enough to claim with the insurance.

UGH! CAN I JUST GO TO DISNEY NOW?!!!